GeLLa’S BloGz

what a bad day
im not suppose to get hurt by you.. i mean diba nga sabi ko sa sarili ko i dont like you wth is happening to me .. parang nadepress ako then you asked me if i was okay asking me what happend so parang ako di ko kayang sabihin because even i myself dont even know what’s going on GUESS WHAT I DID : i watched shows just to me make me happy just to get my mind off you.              can you go somewhere far far away… just vanish in my sight, my mind, and espeacially my heart ♥ 

okay labo may word bang cramness

so third year na ako !! and start to cramming super daming projects and presentations and the deadlines are so lapit to each other (yuck tag-lish :))) anyway ayun and the grading system was changed as in 75=75 na wth ?! ewan ko kung gusto ng schoool kami ibagsak or what and worst this ear yung ipapass sa college wala na… wala na akong kinabukasan. tapos na ang pagasang makapagtapos ng pagaaral * wow straight tagalog *

so blue yung words ko ngayon kasi JUNIOR!! EXCITED NA AKO SA SPORTS FEST!! as in go juniors!! :))) ang labo ko nanaman.. anyway ayun to be continued.

tell me again the story that never ended..

the pain that never healed…

the sweet words you never said…

that suddenly reminded me of love…

and now im scared to know the truth…

between trust or abandonment…

between life and death…

that gives me something to dream about.

all the time i cry

for no reason why.

if you could only know what i feel.

the love that is forbidden…

now.. trust me and close your eyes.

hold me tight and listen to my cries…

smile and understand me…

ITS SOMETHING CALLED FORBIDDEN LOVE..

There is that silence in the dark when you cant do anything but to listen..

listen to a little voice that seemed so deaf

listen to the music with no sound

listen to broken promises that seemed to be whole.

i never thought anything like this would happen to me, feels like theres somthing inside me that never came out i feel like theres somthing inside me is hiding from the world..

What if I said "i love you" to you would you respond same words and feel joy…or you’ll be the one who’s going to break my heart…and let it be filled with anger and with fear…will you have the strength..to say sorry…or you’ll just hinde behind that mask..not having the strength to say the truth…now i know i shoud’nt be concered that you broke may heart…letting the pieces gone away and being blown by the wind….but this is my lastwords to you…

"now i willing to give you up..even it hurts me alot..i known all your feelings now…even if it hurts im willing to take it and embrace it and be a part of it…"

i tried my best na i give nung time ko but its no use….

tama bang sabihin sa person na may gusto ka sa kanya….

tapos its just a lie coz iba pala ang gusto mo.

you just want her best friend….her close friend….

ATTENTION :

HINDE AKO YAN ….. AKO ANG NAGING BIKTIMA

GUSTO NYA PALA NUNG BEST FRIEND KO

AT HINDE AKO PERO CNABE NYA SA AKEN NA GUSTO NYA AKO. KAHIT HINDE TOTOO….DAPAT CNABE NA LANG NYA SA AKIN NUNG TOTOO…THEN LIE TO ME…

hai….been a long time na since nagsulat aq d2…wla lang naman gusto ko lang sana ibuhos ang galit ko…d2…

this summer is the worst summer ever actually d pa nagsisinula nung sumerr nakakinis na nung buhay ko.(dati pa naman eh ever since nung stupid brother ko nagka-asawa) black sheep kasi kuya ko, ( for me lang yun) any way b4 graduation nandito na cla, nung family ng kuya ko (all), tapos nung baby nila mga 1yrs. nd 8 mos. always eat sa room namen tapos i’ll always end up cleaning it myself…alam ko bata lang sya pero nakakainis na talaga…tapos pag magrereklamo ako laging sasabihin ng parents joke mom ko " ganyan ka rin nung bata ka" ergh….. kainis KAINIS…then wla dad ko kasi sa work sya eh nung work nya sa boat … i mean seaman sya sooo wla sya d2 eh… sa kanya naman ako close so i always tell wat i feel to him since wla sya ever since na nandito cla i keep lahat ng galet…inis sa puso ko >>lalim <<<.

one time tumawag nung dad ko then i told him everything including sa mga pagnanakaw at mistulang(lalim nanaman) pagkawala ng pera ko dahil kinukuha para sa pag gastos sa yosi at ang worst ang sinagot lang nya ay… "edi itago nyo nalang nung pera nyo sa room nyo"…tama ba yun parang sya na lang yung taong only chance ko !!! tapos yun…

for everyones information until now im still suffering…i think its WORST NO SAME AS HELL…   

anu dapat kong gawin?

HAY…..CHRISTMAS BRAKE NA….LALO NAGING BRING ANG BUHAY KASE WLA NA NUNG MGA TAO NAGPAPASAYA SA AKIN…..

HAY…BUHAY i MISS SCHOOL NA AGAD TAPOS NAIWANAN KO PA NUNG BOOK KO SA CLASSMATE KO (KAY AILA) :(( HOW COULD I READ THE BOOOK!! (—PROBLEMATIC—) SOOO SAD NGA EH…..TAPOS KAHIT NA BRAKE NA MARAMI PARING GAGAWIN…

ANY WAY I WOULD JUST LIKE TO WISH MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL

anu ba yan walang magandang magawa                                                walang magandang magawa kahit na nasa harap na ng internet all day. parang normal days lang, pero dis day is de worst talagang wala akung magawa. oo nga pala di ko pa nagagawa nung Canal dela Reina ko….Chapter 1 palang aku….

wala lang wla kasi aku magawa!!!                

today im so irritated because every time i sleep someone wakes me up in my favorite part of my dream!!!!!!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!